First Corona and now a Wildfire

I just need to vent. Despite Corona we were planned to go through with a 60 person wedding on a 600+ acre ranch that we were set to rent out for the whole weekend. We could socially distance with ease and almost one week out things were starting to look hopeful for me again. I was starting to get excited for my wedding (something I’ve been struggling with during this pandemic) and it seemed like everything was finally falling into place. Then one of my bridesmaids texted me today saying I’m so sorry about the wildfire that’s so close to your venue. I had no idea until she messaged me, that a day prior a very active wildfire broke out only 15 miles from the venue. With the wedding week being one week from tomorrow and conditions worsening I’m afraid our venue will be 1) covered with falling ash 2) in the soon to expand mandatory evacuation zone and 3) air quality so poor it will choke you. I’m at a loss and feel utterly defeated. I just want to lay in bed and cry the rest of the day. I told my fiancé if we still are to have our wedding we better start looking for an alternative outdoor venue now. I’m not hopeful things will be better in week and I wish that I was. I am at a loss and just want to say ok life you win- F 2020 - sorry end rant