Dysmorphia Bride?

Therapist here! Highly highly HIGHLY recommend working with a therapist who is knowledgable about body dysmorphia and body image. CBT is one of the most recommended forms of therapy for this specific diagnosis at the moment. I think something to remember here is that dysmorphia comes from inside. What you see when you look in the mirror, while it may FEEL true, is almost guaranteed not to actually be something that others can see. One of the biggest things that helped me when I was dealing with dysmorphia during an eating disorder was a therapist telling me that my eyes were broken so not to trust them. To this day I say the same thing to my own clients. I hope that his helps and that you can get some good resources.... Dysmorphia SUCKS and can rule your life but you deserve to feel like the gorgeous human you are!!!

I think Caitlin's advice is spot on, these issues are so challenging to deal with and you would definitely benefit from professional help.

I am nearing the end of some CBT with a therapist for my own food related issues and have found it absolutely invaluable.

Previously I would have been distraught at the idea of getting married at the size that I am, but now I know I have the tools to deal with it and not let it cloud my judgement or ruin anything.

CBT can be effective in a very short time period - so don't be put off that you only have a few months to start.

I completely agree with Caitlin and Bridget. Therapy is the way to go. However, I also wanted to provide an article that I read last year that was really impactful for me. but I can't find it now, which is so sad. Basically, it spoke about how you may hate your pictures. You may want to hide them in a box and never look at them. But how, as time passes, they will become a true treasure. You'll start to see past the judgment and will see the special moments that were captured and the joy on your face. Basically, it gave me hope that even if today I obsess over some stupid nit-picky detail, that it will fade. Someday, I will come back to these photos, and they'll be the most beautiful things. Capturing such a special day.

I do partially expect to hate at least 75% of mine. But I also believe that I will love 100% of them at some point. And that brought me hope.

I hope you find a good therapist! And I'm sure you'll be beyond gorgeous on your wedding day. If you struggle to see it, I'm sure you'll be able to see it in the eyes of those you love.